I recently got released from my calling as young women 1st councilor. It's been a big mix of emotions. I've been in the calling for 3 years now and it was a lot of work, but also a lot of fun too. I loved the closeness with the other leaders as well as the girls. I do feel like it was time. But I'm feeling a little lost right now, like part of my identity has been taken away. I know that must sound silly, but it's been a huge part of me for so long. It's almost like I need to find something else to fill the gap I'm feeling. The bright side is my house is more cleaner then it has ever been, EVER, and I'm actually doing the dishes every day, which is huge for me. Although I'm trying hard to get things organized at home, it seems like the more I complete on the list the longer the list gets. I've also come to the realization that no matter how hard I try, my house will never be or stay as clean as I want with little ones. I also have a false image in my mind that my house is the only one that's ever messy. Like the cleaning thing comes so naturally to everyone else, but I just don't get it. I have to keep reminding myself that others go through these stresses and feelings. Either that or I have too many OCD friends(he,he, jk). I guess what I'm really saying is now that I have more time, I'm trying to manage it very wisely and try to be better each day. That's what this life is all about right? The important thing is that I have a beautiful family, I love them immensely and I know they love me. I'm so blessed, everyday, to spend time with my husband and my little ones. They are my world, and no matter what happens at least I know I have them forever.